i dont care how this sounds like, but sometimes im too tired to think about myself.

anyway, really sorry to my family who i always seem to ignore nowadays. either too busy dragonboating or just want to be antisocial. i hardly ever talk nowadays (i still laugh alot) but i dont bother to try to listen to any of anybody's conversation. i dont know. im not like last time anymore. wanting to hear the juciest and latest form of gossip. i wanted to be updated. but funny how now, i really cant be bothered. i dont care if im outdated or anything. i dont know how i adopted this i-dont-care kind of attitude. just suddenly sprang onto me. or maybe its the after-effects of always sauntering after information about whoever. its fun to know things but at the same time, its good not to know some things. i guess i do have selective hearing nowadays. i choose to listen to things that wont annoy or irritate me. such a waste of energy.

maybe its because im always out of the house - due to db...dont even have time to socialise or outing with my family...
i guess the bottomline is, ive turned into a freaking boring person. and i hate it. but im just too tired to do anything about it..