I just spoke to ellisa on the phone for quite a while. And talking to her has made me realise the changes that have taken place in my little world, the paradigm shifts of focus, the huge distractions that have wormed their way into my life and thrown me off course.

I have grown up, and I've strewn in my wake the remnants of bright happy days, of sunshine and fellowship and joy. Glorious times, beautiful memories of friends whom (I thought) would last forever. And now my priorities have shifted.

The question is, have I changed as a person?

I guess.

Is that a bad thing?

don't know.

I've found more friends. Not to replace my old ones, though it may seem like it at times. And I spend a lot of time with them. They're real friends, people whom I care for and will always be there for.

However, sometimes history compensates for everything. And though I may not be spending a lot of time with you now, what we've learnt about one another in the years past supercedes any quality time lost at present. And in those years, we've also learnt to care for one another come what may. At least, I do for you; I don't know if you feel the same.

I still care very much for what you think of me.