you know.. sometimes.. issues in life.. can really devour our life little by little.. without ourselves realising it.. this is for S.Y.. and some other people i care for.. i mean.. for everyone .. but dedicated to them cos i know they are facing or have faced difficult trials along their paths..

lately.. i'm discovering that i actually try very hard to be a happy person.. let me tell you.. it's a challenge.. the obvious fact is there are too many unwanted things happening around us.. and we'll never seem to be ready enough when surprises hit us..

some people.. they get numb, immuned.. after the pain.. the world or certain issues seem hopeless.. cos we lose our way, and lose the faith in hope.. these people seem strong.. maybe they can move on.. i don't know.. but this is what i mean by hardened hearts.. when people feel painful enough.. they'll simply give up emotionally, and mentally.. but they are not always conscious.. they grow to reject ideas of hope.. like ''that's life anyway.. wat can i do?" but if there's a chance of walking deeper into these people's hearts.. it'll simply reveal how much the pain was to have caused this..

some others.. are a little more blessed.. not because they are lucky.. but somehow.. they believed and understood.. that everybody goes through pain.. (ok.. i know some others really very good life lah.. smooth sailing.. but life is unpredictable.. so.. don't waste time wishing we were them.. cos we are not) well.. point is.. when some get hurt or fall.. it's so painful.. but they learn to resist it.. and not let themselves be tormented.. not that they don't feel the pain.. but they make the pain worthwhile.. instead of being overpowered by the crap.. they stand up against it.. and not refuse to surrender to it.. these people are strengthened.. they were not beaten.. but they learnt to deal with the heartbreak..

sometimes i reflect on my life.. it's like quite a fine line between the 2.. occaasionally, i get confused too.. but.. i guess the best way.. in my opinion.. in my context.. to overcome pain and fear.. is to confront them.. the logic is simple.. like a fight between 2, if one decides to keep retreating and dodging or crouching down.. the other simply gets the chance to overpower even more.. forcing the opponent to retreat further away.. but if, instead he fought upright, upfront.. the other would not have chance to keep invading endlessly.. k.. sounds a bit crappy.. dunno how to explain.. but.. it's real.. go watch some tournament.. hahaha.. you'll know wat i mean..

so well.. it's a choice.. to swallow and suffer in the repercussions of the pain.. or to face it bravely.. the pain was already caused.. fact of life.. a memory, yes.. and a painful one.. so why not let it be more useful to your life instead of instilling further damage to yoursleves.. use it a a tool to be stronger for the next battle! =)

if there's somewhere you need to source for strength, my recommendation is.. the unfailing God! you'll be amazed really by what he can do in your lives.. but you need to take the step forward .. can't just sit and wait for some miracle like God to suddenly touch you and tell you, you're healed.. you need actions too.. God will always do the rest to help.. but the preceding statement is the term applicable.. that is.. to do your part =)

oh yeah.. anway...Over the busy weekend i skipped my training n went for my ex chinese teacher's church wedding... oh man.. i cant describe it...Happiness was rlly written all over her face=) she looked so darm happi ..Met up with my ex classmates n all... awww ... i miss them all=) aft the wedding went for my dragonboat bbq... ate chicken wings..the db ppl cooked the nicest BBQ wings ever=) ND i swear tt taking care of a drunkard can be utterly awful...shared cab with chris n jean the next day[ "ton" over at east coast] anyway... chris was drunk and clever jean sat in the front seat.. leaving me to take care of him.....n he was like.. suffering from hang over and im so afraid tt he will vomit in the cab.. I kept on waking up from my "doze" having to turn ard and ask him.. hey u ok rte? this at least repeated for up to 4 to 6 times...so dumb pls!!!!!!!!!

had my training today... falling ill i guess.. i got this freaking sore throat nw... i need to buy some vitamins man... ND I GT A BIG BLUE BLACK ON MY ELBOW because i rowed to hard n knock against the boat.. bahh..

ciaoz..

HAPPINESS!!!!!!

my dragonboat darlings...
Shu yuan n me=)
one of my dragonboat darlings<3RP DRAGON[girls]