definition of a relationship.. i dunno.. these are sudden thoughts.. can someone just stop me from being distracted by silly thoughts..

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gal is along path A.. boy on path B.. they see each other from across from afar.. then they look North and see point C.. they know they want to be there.. so.. they continue walking.. they are moving closer.. and closer.. the happy ever after ending.. at point C.. they meet.. so sweet.. they drew an inverted letter 'v' with their story.. how nice..

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scenario 2.. still gal is along path A.. boy on path B.. they see each other from across from afar.. then they look North and see point C.. they know they want to be there.. so.. they continue walking.. then some bright light shone on them from the back.. one turns around, and realises South.. he looks at gal and thinks.. what do i want.. are we really heading the same way.. he.. thinks.. perhaps not.. so.. he reverses his steps and walks away.. ouch..

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scenario 3.. same, again.. still gal is along path A.. boy on path B.. they see each other from across from afar.. then they look North and see point C.. so.. they continue walking.. this time.. the light shone again.. none looked back.. they continued walking.. and reached North.. but did not meet.. wonder why.. they looked back.. at the footprints.. they didn't see the forming of the inverted 'v' anymore.. instead they saw.. 2 parellel lines.. they reached North.. but were not at point C..

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think i dun have to explain further right.. hmm.. improvised this from something learnt from elsewhere.. if this is a reminder or encouragement to any.. myself to be exact..it'd be my joy that it is helpful.. but if it rings an alarm.. it calls for some attention to perhaps rethink about the routes you've chosen..

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drinking wasnt good aft all... someone got drunk from last night drinking aft e class bbq.. n was threatening to break up her guy.. poor guy was calm and was seen handling the situation rather well.. no showing of attitude nor acting childishly...tts the different between mature n ammature... the group of us had a heart to heart tok which was only among us n we promised it wun leave the table.. of cos im nt going to say it out.. but im glad tt everyone was telling wad they think not holding or wadsoever.. its rlly nice hearing truth and yeah its time to change and march forward!!! i

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had my share of problem just an hr ago... he was angry with(i think) me for continuosly drinking these few days...and his attitude whn toking to me turn a whole 360 degree...bcos he was someone special.. someone tt i can cry for him and someone tt every msges he sent brightens my day.. his change of attitude scared me.. i didn not noe what to do but apologized profusely..my mind was blank... not realising that sorry doesnt help whn one is angry.. so i just kept saying sorry...sorry for wad? sorry for drinking or sorry for making you angry? Just mins ago... i sat down.. infront of the mirror.. my eyes were red from the crying...i started reflecting on what had happend just now..

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that was concern. i see concern and i've realised. Forget bout my apologies just now. Its was "empty sorry" just now, i didn realised what i did wrong just now, it was a sorry with no meaning behind it. But now, the meaning behind this sorry is i've made you worried... and im terribly sorry bout that..

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to a very nice lady: it was really wonderful because of you.. i was actually crying when i told you the stuff.. it's probably the only time i reanacted the whole incident through my mind calmly.. thanks for just bothering to listen.. but the crying was good.. cos my mind was rather refreshed.. thanks lady!

love, jessamine