hmm..

rachel[sis] said im getting wierd.. n she is so worried bout miee:C
she said ive been behaving wierd...
n at the time she said this to me..
i think bout it myself too
n i too realised.. IM BEHAVING WIERD RLLY...

sis said tt im like veri uptight these days..
she said tt i use to be a bubble...floating ard..
carefree...fun... active...open[in the sense of sharing my life with her.. telling things tt happen to me]
so she said tt now the bubble burst..
im uptight.. keeping things to myself..ITS LIKE SO NOT ME...
reason...
im getting so tired of life...
hypocrite...LIERS...

everytime i trust... its a lie...
n when i say i trust.. i rlly mean TRUST..
its so hurting..when ppl misused my trust..
i always believe in giving chance.. n...
however in the end ... i always find myself being cheated..
im not trying to act victim or wadsoever..
so no pity is needed...
however this is rlly freaking me out..
everytime i noe new friends...the first thing tt came to my mind was..
is he/she trustable???
will they make use of me???

as for old friends... i found some boasting bout themselves..
n im totally disgusted....

OK i just ask bro if im wierd..
n he said yes.. he said im changing..
he say the friends i mixed show it all...
becoming materialistic..
just because my friends drive???
so im getting materialistic???
he said i oni mixing with ppl who drive..
M I???? no i donte...estee donte drive...zhi fong donte drive...neither does morven drive=((
jonathan?? i noe him b4 he started learning driving...
or m i really getting materialistic without myself noeing=((