im gonna sit dwn nd write myself a last msg, and believe tt it came from you. im gonna write words that seems so sweet, and hope tt it will knock me off my feet. "Lots of love ", "lyk you alwys" written in the end of e msg. i'll smile n says 'hope you're feeling better nd be glad tt i receive it. i'll make myself believe it came from you, though i know u will nv send miee tt , but i'll make myself believe tt it came from you.. i rlly will...

thinking bout days when i cry for stupid reasons rlly make miee feel so lousy...hmmm....things just didn go e way i wanted... just lyk going against e concentrating gradient.. its energy consuming...i didn ask for lyk.. being committed or smth.. i just wan to lyk secretly lyk a person... thou its alwys not a secret..hmmo...i will just wait by my mobile.. n everytime it beeps... i will wish tt it came from u ... but my wish alws donte come true... i noe..its rlly part of my wishful thoughts...therefore.. im gonna end it here...its better this way.. i wan u to b happi...sound dramatic..but its 100% true...i donte wan u to feel tied up by miee..or lyk forcing u...hmmm...so im no longer going to lock u up...im gonna set u freee......ok.. just to say one last time...its rlly gonna be the last time... so ppl listen up...ZF i lyk u n i rlly rlly rlly do!!!

yeap..im gonna forget u..being a strong miee.. i believe i can do it... yeah??? gary said i can... hmm i believe i can too!!!!!!!!!ok.. i will treat it as e birthday present fer myself since my birthday is comin...hmm...hahaha... 13 oct..peeps looking at my blog.. u ppl noe wad to do huh.. hurhur....n oh ya..msg smth fer gary-ya realli my precious... alwys telling miee encouraging stuffs..lyk saying u will support miee .. n i can do it thingy... i rlly appretiate tt baby...8 yrs of friendship its really strong..nth is gonna bring us apart..hurhur...yeah... gonna slp soon...

ciaoz..