i have moved

w64k.
cg is funny and likes to "chiong".. and the one to avoid on bdae..
greg is sometimes funny..sometimes emo..
sean cai, hmmm clone of chunhong?
sean marcus tan, still as crazy or mayb crazier..
michelle sporty safra db girl.. ( im an ex rp db girl.. LOL)
munirah, sweet girl and a dancer..
aqila, hip hop dancer..
aminah's stylo milo..
harry is hardworking( i suppose so)
ziwei loves loves pink( and hello kitty)
khai , super mario anyone?
jonathan, err not much impression..guai guai boy..
p... i think its patricia.. i cant remember her name.. sporty and bball player..
nahh, im no stalker.. i just enjoy observing ppl.. it creeps me out sometimes thou..

thats only about half of the class.. i couldnt remember the other half.. LOL..
so much for sincerity.. LOL..

AND so, im lying on top of my big pile of clothes now..
was throwing/clearing out some clothes and am too lazy to place the others back..
maria pls! LOL.. shut up jess..
i think cg is right.. we are crazy.. no no no, i still refuse to accept tt..

upcoming events
sec sch gathering...
w64k class outing...
cupcake making session..
meet up with yeing and vin...
meet up with wx...
wakeboarding, cable ski in batam...
spa...

things to do
study for the upcoming uts..(which i happen to be having tmr, and im only 3/4 done)
transfer moola to the spree organizer..
facial
tan
do smth to the bursting cupboard
shoppingsave

i think im gonn fail the saving part... i need my sugar daddy...
in which the daddy refer to my daddy.. real blood related dad.
he will be back on monday morning..
misses<3

i hate to say this but i think i hate b.
plain annoying, naggy and awfully unappreciative..
i hate ppl who doesnt appreciate and those who take things for granted.

knn.

ystd was spend attending school, doing online shopping( again!), followed by the interview workshop after sch with jess.
interesting i will say.
the beginning was boring however half way thru the beginning it got pretty interesting..
dinner with bro, his gf and dad ended the day.

dad is away at bali, no good.
my face is peeling, no good..
shopping at vivo with wx, good.
talking to wx, good.
tanning by the beach, good.
looking tan, good.

too poor.

too much online sprees.. and earlier on, i was still discussing with the spree coordinator on how shiok it is to join overseas spree because of the low price and not bad quality. but rlly la, with the amount of money i can only buy a few clothes in singapore but in overseas spree i can get twice the amount of clothes with the same amount of moola..the only downside is that it usually take 1-2 months for the clothes to be ship in and all.. but its all worth it in the end i guess?? i shall cross my finger.

(Operating system concept) C122 u.t on thurs and (systems analysis and design)C202 ut on fri, yeap its back to back.. arugh.. i rlly need to do well this semester..

throat is still painful.. oh shit, i forgot to take medicine today! ok bye im gonna take my medicine and then shall read up on C122 and C202 before i slp..

fuck the flu bug.

i caught the flu bug that have been lurking ard the school.
so im officially down with a fever, a major split headache and a disgustingly sore sore throat..
and just by swallowing water makes me groan in pain.. thus to prevent myself from starving to death, I'm learning to replace my meal with overcooked cabbage, tofu, smoothie, seedless grapes, steam chicken thighs and not forgetting tonnes of left over mooncakes from the mid autumn festival and also ice cream to satisfy my sweet tooth. notice the similarity between those food? yeap, smooth and easy to swallow. ok damn, it sounds so wrong..

dad is bringing me to the doc tmr.. now i have to skip sch not once but twice in a row.. its not that im complaining about skipping school but haiz.. nonetheless there goes my 2 "off" days..

my favorite past time..
reading under the lovely sun..

and if love rlly comes knocking this time..
i will embrace it.. no more chickening out jess, no more..

Fine dinning@Oso Ristorante

My Friday night was spend fine dining with Jerica at the elegant milanese-style restaurant, Oso Ristorante..


i had( cant remember what Jerica order, HAHA):
1.)Bread( complimentary),balsamico sauce and olive oil.

2.)Antipasto(appetizer)
Melanzane, oven baked eggplant with tomato sauce and mozerella.

3.)Insalata(salad)
Parmigiano,mixed salad in balsamico dressing with shaved cheese.

4.)Pesce(fish)
Merluzzo, roasted cod filet in balsamico sauce served with rosemary potato

5.)Dolce(dessert)
Crostata, hot dark chocolate tart with milk ice cream.


The cheese for the parmigiano(salad) was shaved in the cheese room mins before it was served. According to the waiter, the cheese room had been classified as the first of its kind in Singapore. The cheese room not only showcases cheese( duhhh~), uniquely presented cold cuts are also displayed in the glass covered cheese room, with specific temperature! And top marks for the dark chocolate Costata!!!!!!! Conclusion?? The food is definitely impressive! oh ya btw , the meal cost me quite a bomb..

and cheers~

Sch is starting, damn it. my laptop still down, im hopping down to sim lim tmr to see if i can get it fix otherwise i will have to wait another 2 weeks for the dumb spare part to arrive.. and also to pay an unreasonable amount of money for it. im usually not too willing to splurge when it comes to gadget..

i think i've overspent my money this sch holiday .. 1.2k in 3 weeks? thats the end result of my "oh-its-a-once-in-a-while-self-indulgence". haha so much for saying "im going to save 200bucks a month".. no wonder Rachel laughed when i told her that.. now i get it.. lol..

Thai food at Golden Mile with dad ystd and Thai food at Golden Mile AGAIN today with pam pam.. Im obsessed with Thai food!( think tomyum soup and mango salad) You had probably catch us blowing our nose once every few seconds , all thanks to the ultra spicy Thai food. yeap, it was quite a sight.. lol.. Nonetheless, thai food is the sex! we enjoy every single drop of it..


Malaysia trip(KL+Genting) with the babes were great..
Shopping, massage, food, booze, drunk, scream, movie and not forgetting the laughing marathon we had.. spent approx S$450( excluding the coach and hotel)... i donte see myself spending tt much thou, i think most of the ka-ching was spend on food! like always.. HAHA..


nd oh ya, i've decided that i wun club on my bdae.. clubbing on bdae is quite pointless( and nth special), except that this time i will be able to slap MY( my id, not jayne's and not pam's) id at the bouncer's face because im officially 18 which also mean legal to most of the clubbing scene in singapore=) so yeap, anyway i will probably indulge in a spa getaway trip with some of the closer friends.. and mayb register for basic theory with jayne? will see, not quite into driving thou..

Things to do:
1.)Batam trip tmr with dad and granny..
2.)Storytelling workshop in school..
3.)Fine dining at the jewel box with mq next week. i seriously cant remember when was the last time we fine dine together. probably a 4 course dinner in the cable car.. and thats self indulgence<3
4.)Facial before sch start..
5.)Touch up my highlight on either thurs/friday..
6.)Start saving for rainy days..( yeah rite, haha.. i will TRY.. rlly..)

Danielle Steel- the wedding

I spent one and a half day glued to this novel - the best yet.

And I can't believe myself for crying the shit out of me - over the novel.
But what I really didn't see it coming - how could a fucking novel get soooo good?!
The ending was superb and it seriously touches my heart and before i realised the tears starting forming..

I'm going for "the prayer" and "granny's dan" of Danielle Steel's next,
which have been sitting on the shelf since 2 weeks ago..

And I wondered why I've always been so into storybooks...

On these deep,
rainy afternoons, with each drop sliding so slowly down the windowpanes,
moments seem to stretch until they're painful.
Alone in a bare white room,
I cannot help but let my mind wander,
trying to fill these hours of longing and vile emptiness with a bittersweet oblivion

1 more week to the monstersteer trip..
2 more days to meet up session with shermain..
3 more days AND SCHOOL IS FINALLY OFF!!!!!

my plan is to shop till i drop in malaysia..
ok well, not exactly drop.. but somewhere there..

have been putting off partying recently(which also mean i haven been burning calories on the dance floor)...due to the fact that im saving up hard for the monsterteer getaway aka shopping trip..
and being the poor, incomeless student doesnt help..
booo.. i wish im born with a silver spoon, a golden spoon will be better or mayb even a diamond spoon... oh stop! a titanium one will be best..

ok i shall stop my nonsense..
theres this small water blister growing on the corner of my nose...
in which if u haven know is the result of the flu i had last weekend..
ok anyway, the blister is fucking painful and its oozing liquid.. its rlly annoying because i got to clean up the nose every now and then because when the liquid harden it form smth which look like "pi sai"( nose dirt) .. and i really donte wan to walk ard with a pi sai look alike..

ok bye!

"the next entry will be a happy and a good one.." is not happening..
haven been feeling good, both emotionally and physically..
neither have i been having good night sleep.. ok whats new?

Genting trip on the 27th with the BFFS=)
better entry the next time round..

I'm "single" which also mark the fact that im " free" again.( just ended the not here nor there relationship)

Reason for ending the relationship, i couldnt make the final step. i couldnt trust. So last night i called him up, telling him that this relationship arent going to blossom.And we shouldnt waste our time on smth like this. I told him things which i haven told anyone. it never feels as good as you imagine but I am nonetheless... relieved.

still struggling with guilt. A guilt that gnaws every once in a while. A guilt that's not supposed to be. But it is. It's not a personal guilt, but more of a fear of social opinion, like shame, as if I'm obliged to cut even with every familiar, curious face I meet on the streets. Not that they'd be interested. But I'd just hate to think of what's going on behind that "hey jessamine! See you ard!" Not that it should matter to me. But it does.

Maybe I should just have more faith in humanity again. That if I do not judge, the chances are, others won't either.

It's not an outcome of a deliberate, concious action. But a need. A weak helpless cry from within, that renders us all bitches, sluts, bastards and jerks.

I might be gone for quite some time. Goodbye now

i know that the worst criticism levied on myself comes from me.
and i have stupid fears that other people see me painted in those drab colours as well.

run run run.

i have that habit of escaping so they won't see

craving affirmation
of a 'box-less' me in the other's mind.

but that's for later.
i know that i'm tired now.
so with full knowledge,
i am going to hide away for now
i'm sticking my head in the ground

L.O.V.E
its worst than dieting..

i suck at love..
i think i should give up on that shit..
love never work on me, it used to.. but not anymore..
Diana say that im too protective.. too afraid of getting hurt..
yeah i agree.. i never let infatuation go too far, i stop when it could have gone further..
cause im too scared of getting hurt..

love can kiss my ass..

mind over body...
its all in the mind...

classic Caesar salad with additional smoked salmon IS THE SEX..
and so is the classic carrot cake from THE COFFEE BEAN...

studying with gf is definitely the wrong choice cause we spent most of the time gossiping... ok tts not new..
but i really enjoy chilling at the coffee bean( holland v), the coffee place else where is always too crowded and noisy..
reached the home sweet home at around 3am.. fucking tired..
almost couldnt make it for the c121 workshop..

met up with xiu qi and donavan after the workshop, went k box-ing...
and i no longer like singing, i kept on pushing to mic to xq and donavon.. oh wel hobby changes as u grow right?

Well, xq commented tt im rather skeptical when it comes to matter of heart..i donte know..
but it doesnt really bothers me though, i just want to live life and enjoy it..

p.s erh jessica, see? i went to the workshop..not a min late=)

i want to fall in love.
i just decided this.
being single was nice.
but im over it.