i was cying fuck just now. it makes me wonder what life is all about and which always then led me into a frenzy and poof all of a sudden everything seems right again..
so what the fuck is wrong??

i need to stop acting like everything is fine when its not...
i need to quit staining every inch of my quilt with tears that pours out of my eyes like it doesnt want to stay inside my horrible body...
i wan to be happy...

Is that too much to ask for???
I've never know that part of me is suffering... and yes i finally know what the reason why my period started playing the game of mia with me.. all i know is it all started a yr ago... i donte know exactly when, how or why.. it just happened and before i know it, it all came crashing down...
too much shit to handle, too little faith...

the person i am right now, does not like to breathe. i cant stand the fact that i exist , and i wish i could be done with. like im done with this..

Unfortunately its never that easy...

these tears are blocking my vision..please stop.. i cant anymore.. u noe...

friends, pls do noe ask me if im ok bcos NO IM DEFINATELY NOT OK...
and donte ask me anything about this entry..
just pretend tt this entry never existed... thanks..