sick yet it cant stop miee from going out..
we had so much fun when colleagues n i met up..
superb.. n hell lots of fun.. laughter...
n most importantly...
MY HEART WILL GO ON.. quoted form fanny.. HAHAHA..
shah , fanny , joan , adik[not too sure bout the spelling] n i were there...
went home at ard.. 2 am?? took a cab back after tt...
will be meeting them again on thurs...
shah just add miee on msn.. darm..
n his nick was.. handsome-_-
wad the fuck.. n i kept on laughing at him..

ystd was valentine's day..
n things wasnt too happi in the morning.. i woke up ard 8 still sick, of cos. Estee told miee tt we will meet at 11 , dover mrt...will be visiting sp..
i took a cab down cos i tot im late..cos estee doesnt like ppl to be late... n smth which was so hilarious[i dunno y im not angry..just felt kinda stupid for waking up early so as i wun b late]happened...i called estee n asked where she is.. n she said"u reach??u didn receive my sms tt say we will meet at 1 instead??" im like.. HAHAHAHHAHA.. Zzzzz.... i called morven n asked him to come down.. n he was too laughing at my stupidity...but still he rushed down=)) thou its alrdy 12.30 when he reach..n im alrdy standing like a fcuking idot for 1 n 1/2 hrs.. took my lunch.. n estee they all reach ard 1.15?? cos i remembered morv n i left the bridge for lunch aft i called mi yun asking her where she was..n she said on the train...met up with vic soon after..n aft estee n mi yun reached.. we stay there not more than an hr.. we left-_-.. its even shorter than the time i waited for them alrtd?!?!??!??!?!

i mus have look like a fcuking stupid idot...
i try not to get angry... cos theres alrdy a lil problem between estee n i..
i donte hope to like.. make it even worse..
cos i rlly love estee[ in the form of best fen..MUSHY!! HAHA]
so i CONTROL!!! yes n yeap.im glad tt i didn blow up...
aft sp trip.. we took the train down to tampanies mall to have soul garden...
not nice thou.. i only ate the black pepper beef=)) the beef is nice...
aft tt estee said tt she will be meeting wei lun they all[which she eventually didn..jeremy asked miee y we didn meet them.. n i said.. oh NO NO NO.. i didn say i wan to meet u all...]
vic, ying ting, morv , another girl[i forgot the name] n i went to k ster...we saw xiu fen on the way.. n morv was like.. err.. shld i go over n say hi.. hmm... fcuking shy.... $16.80 its consider rlly cheap since its valentine's day.. n theres free buffet too=)) at ard 10?? ying ting n the girl left.. morven pang seh vic n i and left with the girls.. vic was cursing at morven.. n im so scared alrdt!!!!!
i kept telling vic.. wei.. donte angry la... veri scary leh.. HAHA.. then he smile n everything go back to normal.. n he continue to select songs for miee to sing.. he donte sing.. he oni select songs for us to sing=))

N YES!!! we sang SHAN HU HAI!!!!!!! hahaha.. sang tt earlier.. with morven thou.. HAHAHA...
finally.. i heard vic sing with a mike.. for the first time alrdt??? i force him to sing thou.. i threw the mike to him.. lol.. quite nice i suppose.. at srd.. 11.15pm.. we left the ktv.. n i said.. hey u take 124 rte..?? i will be going oppsite.. byebye!!!! then he said.. nvm la.. i accompany u to the bus stop.. cos i heard tt u always expect ppl to acc u to bus stop one rte?[ heard from hu?? MORVEN OF COS!!!!].. n yeap he accompany miee walk to the bus stop n waited for miee to board the bus b4 he left.. NICE CHAP!! hahaha... im always saying ppl nice just bcos they accompany miee to either tok on phone or bus stop.. HAHAHA...
his gf for 2 yrs n 9 months broke up with him not long ago.. n he was like.. still liking tt girl..
i salute ppl like him...

zf asked miee smth...
i guess its cos im a lil irritaing?? hmm...
he asked if i treated him like a bf..
i said no of cos.. cos i rlly didn treat him like my bf..
i oni treat him as someone i like..
tts y i didn expect him reciprocate wad...
errr.. its like.. i donte dare to tok to him now.. cos i dunno if he will scold miee for being irrtating.. cos if im him.. i will:x
HOW HOW HOW=((
8 months of liking[single side thou] ok??!?!?!?!
shld i let it go??? NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DONTE WAN I DONTE WAN!!!!!!!!!
bahh...but if one day i rlly felt tt nth is ever going to work between us..
i will.. holding on to one relationship u noe its not ever gonna work.. its a waste of time for both party..

alan is having tis arguement with his gf.. he think tt his gf didn reciprocate...
this is a lil problem.. bcos as his gf.. reciprocate its a must must must!!! otherwise...
it will always be in a give give n nv receive situation for the guys..
alan n gf.. pls read up this book if u can.. i can lend it to u.. if u wan..
men are from mars n women r from venus..written by john gray.. its a really good book..
it toks about relationship...rlly a good book.. read it up=))

ppl whu think im in no position to tok about this.. becos im not even in a relationship..
think again...
i arent trying to be pro...
its oni bcos i've seen it...
married.. give birth.. quarrel..extra marital affair... fight.. divorce...fighting for custody....
its tears and wound=((
it somehow created this phobia in miee...of not trusting guys...
i can always encourage ppl in their realationship.. but mine??
total failure=((y.. bcos of the phobia...got it??
im drifting further n further....
its about them n not miee...-_-

sometimes.. i just wan to like a guy...
a very simple single sided love is enough..
i arent asking for romantic relationship.. cos i noe tt oni happen on others n never on miee..
i donte expect him to reciprocate.. im just happi by liking him...
nvm if he donte like miee unless he hate miee..
its happier this way.. no quarrel...
alrtd.. im feeling down again!!!!!!!!!
i rlly cant tok about this..
it just spoil my mood...

good bye!!! im going into my "well"..
quoted from" men are from mars n women r from venus"